Home Archives for 2016-08-21
Friday, August 26, 2016
Alone again…this happens so much
Desperately waitin for love’s tender touch
Yet seconds lead to days…days to years
Findin solace in alcohol whilst swallowin my tears
Life comes but once…wat happens then
Death comes welcome…the question is when
Am I not special? For me u have no time
Cant force u to love me…u never be mine’(
Thursday, August 25, 2016
is there nothin I can do right?
everythin a worry an fight…
call me names tear me down
use abuse push me around
fat f…k ; hungry am i?
a life like this id rather die”(
no comfort no ease
torture…ur temper I cant appease
pls let me go…im not ready to die
pleas only end wen my lifeless body says bye”(
Wednesday, August 24, 2016
So wat will it take
To mend ur heartache?
For u to love me
An accept that she
Is gone from ur life
An I wish to be ur wife
Or will u dear
Mourn to have her near
While I wait
But don’t be too late
For time will not stand still
My life I want u fill
Our timin so vast
Our world so different an far
Yet u forever remain my ardour…
I need refuge…a safe place....
Away from this madness I have to face
Daily a struggle…a neverendin trend
With no hope of improving, no hope of an end
Im no best thing no ‘hi-grade’
Then why stay an insult an degrade
Think im stupid an not pretty?
Have scarred face an fat body?
Then pls let me leave an be
Somewhere I can finally be happy”(
Look at me wat u see?
Always smiling forever happy
Gait light…demeanor carefree
Tease on my lips as sweet as bee
But look closer through these eyes
That sparkle that never dies
Beyond seemin happiness…but beware
Least u drown in my despair
The pain…the agony inside
Away from this world I carefully hide
No one to trust no one to confide
Silently suffer while torment is amplified
Tuesday, August 23, 2016
Cant force u to love me
Or show me u care
Keep longin for ur company
Cause I miss u an wish u always near
When ur happy I smile
Ur every mood affects me
Ur busy life an distance
Our different timin…makes me lonely
Wishin for u always
With each passin day
Every moment with u
Is precious an hope u stay
How do u hate me?...let me count the ways
Abuse an name callin…make my dreary days
Fat f…ker…ugly ass…cat-hole am i?
Cunt-hole an hungry indian…u make me sigh
No high grade best thing…no pink skin
Fat ugly an stupid like my own kin
Threaten my life…bruise my body
Beat an torment me…make me bloody
Think I have no brains? No common sense?
My head thick wicked nasty an dense?
Please just stop…shut up I scream inside
But alas no comfort…relief im denied
But its my ego that’s damaged
Soul hurtin an discouraged
Hopin for an end to this madness
Driftin away deeper into life’s abyss
Loneliness my forever friend
With me to my bitter end
Night was cold….in darkness I lay
Prostrate an shiverin I began to pray
Face first in the mattress…hands coverin my head
Listenin to his threats…tonight im dead
Back my neck a heavy blade
Shoutin an cursin…on me it weighed
Alas flesh gave up an felt a heat
Slowly pourin blood makin puddle in the sheet
I give up my body feels numb
Once love, now this? Wat have we become?
As my body goes limber u finally stop
Only relief when my ghost has given up...:((
Who am I to u
Bag to punch black an blue
Words so harsh an mean
Under garb bruises unseen
Under my skin
Behind my forever grin
There lies a mess within
My wits stretched thin
All of me beggin an screamin
While outer smile is beamin
No one can know my pain
Wat life I live again an again…
Go for somebody who is glad to have you as well as go out on a limb just to be with you. There is No Scale To Measure the affection.. A...
08/21 - 08/28
- Alone again…
- so much pain...
- would you even really miss me.?
- is there nothin I can do right?
- Is there anyone to love me?
- So wat will it take..
- Somewhere I can finally be happy”(
- How much Lord….
- Look at me what u see?
- Cant force u to love me..
- Wherever I go I wish you to be with me
- How do u hate me....?
- Night was cold…
- Who am I to u....
- an the dream is dying ...
- Another sleepless night....
- He said....
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